This is as good a place as any to write. There's no one around - no email - no anything on FB - and I can't sleep because my nose is stuffy...again! "Dolly" came out into the hall and looking for either the mouse or Miss Kitty or wonders why no one is around but me...but he sees me through the glass door and I spoke to him so he knows I'm still here. Miss Kitty left us Sunday - heartbreaking...always one after another in this house...I don't get a break from being caregiver to my cat families, but I wouldn't have it any other way. Love...and being loved back and being needed...now Dolly is laying in the hall facing her room with door open and no Miss Kitty - he's probably confused. 2 months ago it was his brother, Chloe, and this week it's Miss Kitty...not fair. Too much cancer taking animals' lives. Too much with bleeding issues...I've never seen this in my cats in the past.
I didn't know what I was going to write about - but looking at Facebook it was a friend's birthday on the home page so I replied with "Happy Birthday" and saw that this person was a member of an association I used to be a member of - the Association of Research and Enlightenment (A.R.E.) out of Virginia Beach. I was part of a local group that discussed Edgar Cayce and so became a member - I even had their books for sale when I started my first gift shop that became Steppingstones Gift & Specialty Shop. I loved that shop...became a new age shop in Chepachet until I got a $1000 electric bill due to an electric heater that ran all night one time...the landlord lived in Florida and it was tough luck on my part, so I closed. That was also the year we had BIG snow and the guys closed the Lamp Lighter Building I was in...other than that, I loved Steppingstones. :)
Getting back to the ARE...it raised a red flag..."don't join anything." The famous last words of a guy in a TM group I was part of...I will always remember those words...every time I join something. :) Keep making that mistake, though, except now I think I will listen and will stop joining things. I have taken 2 online art courses back-to-back since Sept. 2016. I'm ready to pay another $497 for another 6-week course that I am now not going to take. I know the artist's style now and it's difficult. It's in oils. The smell bothers my eyes and my tray of cacti and succulents is in the way and only window I can put them in...now I could set up in Miss Kitty's room and paint with my acrylics, which I may do, but the art style calls for oils and the expense is too much with the canvases and paints and brushes...and the FB group, well there are some nice ladies there and many have friended me on FB. But there seems to be a lack of reciprocation. Why is that always the case? Why am I supportive and reply on all the pretty paintings posted in the art group and come the page they friended me on...where'd they go? I don't even take a day off from posting on FB - mostly quotes and pretty images and animals/cats! It makes me happy. I need to change my ways...I love to give but when there are no responses...why did they friend me, then?
I do like that I'm reading more. I asked for a few books for Christmas...finished Shirley MacLaine's "Out on a Leash" - so loved it and so identified with it. Losing a beloved pet friend/family member is heartbreaking! The tears rushed down my face. Now I'm reading Oprah's "The Wisdom of Sundays." What a beautiful book - I watched her Super Soul Sunday shows and the book is page after page conversations with many, if not all the spiritual thinkers/authors in our time. I'll finish it soon. Last night I needed to start reading Joseph Prince's new book, "Live The Let-Go Life." I watch his half hour sermons - came upon him by chance surfing through channels a year or so ago...been following him (and Joel Osteen) ever since. As in anything, take what you want - believe what you believe and leave the rest. It seems to be the case with me...that's why it's right for me not to join anything because I don't agree 100% nor am I a fanatic about one particular thing. Anyway, I read until I wanted to go to bed. Now here I am still with a stuffy nose but writing here. It's better than waiting for a pen pal to respond to my last 5 emails! People...they are funny creatures...but not so funny. The planet would be better without humans. That's another blog post...I'm going back to bed. This blog stuff is a good outlet for me, though. I don't wait for responses nor do I need approval from anyone...I can say what I want. However, I have to watch what I share because anything I don't want stolen will not be posted. People still steal poetry, song lyrics, good quotes, and so because others take credit for what I have written in the past, I will just be like Kathleen Kelly in "You've Got Mail" and simply write about bouquets of sharpened pencils or write to the wind itself...it doesn't matter because I expect nothing from anyone. But I do love to write and so I will write. No one has to be on the receiving end here. :) Good rest of the AM here on the east coast!